Laid Off

I went in to work today, and began my shift just like I would any other shift. About an hour in, though, one of the store managers told me that he needed to talk to me, so he brought over one of the head cashiers to cover for my register. He pulled me aside - very far aside - and gave me my two weeks' notice. I'm being laid off.

He said something comforting; that the decision was not made by anyone who worked with me, and is not because of anything I've done wrong. He stated that he thinks I'm a great kid, and that he's enjoyed having me there, and would be open to the idea of rehiring me after thirty days. He told me that this is what I should do, and I suppose I will, if I haven't found anything else by that time.

This hurts. It's taking away a lot from me. It's taking away my ability to help my family, and it's taking away my ability to pay for dates and to buy things for Mallory, or even to buy little things for myself. I'm so sick of being in and out of jobs all the time. I really want something to stick.

I was battling myself during work for a few hours after this, trying to keep my spirits up and not be completely down and miserable about this, and I remembered a certain scripture in Mosiah. It reads:

Mosiah 23:21 "Nevertheless the Lord seethe fit to chasten his people; yea, he trieth their patience and their faith. (22:) Nevertheless - whosoever putteth his trust in him the same shall be lifted up at the last day. Yea, and thus it was with this people."

It goes on to say in Mosiah 24:14 "And I will ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions."

So this is what I've been trying to think about. I don't want to let myself linger in the valley of sorrow, because that isn't productive, nor is it helpful at all.

On the bright side, I have plenty of time to finish the book I'm reading, and to work on my own fiction. Not to mention go out and have more walks.

I think that this event really makes me want to be motivated towards pursuing my own creative goals even more. I want to be valued for how I see the world, and the things which I draw out of my experience in this thing called life. The power of a good, clever writer is so great upon the imaginations of those who read and dream. I have always been a story teller, and there's no more kidding myself. I need to quit procrastinating and learn to do what I love!

Anyways, I have dishes to do here before I go to bed. I can't wait for thanksgiving dinner tomorrow!

Goodnight!